I love writing blogs. I get so excited when I travel as I have ideas running through my head every day. My PhD blog has helped me get through writers block and really make progress. Blog’s are awesome. But this one is feeling a bit like a chore right now. I love cooking and sharing the recipes, but I am not a professional blogger. My photos are rubbish and my writing is not considered. I’m never going to get invited to food blogger events (nor do I want to) and I don’t have the time to market myself. I don’t even share this on social media anymore. My readership was going strong for a while, but is now reducing and I haven’t the time to work on it. I’m also falling behind on my PhD, mainly because I took on a high teaching load in the latter half of the semester, and took off to China for a week. In addition I agreed, reluctantly, to get involved in a fundraising event which has ended exactly as I feared, that is not well. Then, to issue me with another whack, I’ve been told I need at least one operation to repair the arm I broke last year. I didn’t really expect that I may be having surgery three times to repair the ‘multiple anomalies’ I have. This means another 6 weeks in a cast from July, and 6 months rehab. Again. Then more if I have the further work. My yoga practice is really in trouble, and as for typing… Consequently I’m taking a blog break. Until I get back on track with my ‘real job’ I need to be 100% dedicated to it. I’ll still share recipes on instagram and maybe I’ll come back in a month or two, the same or different.abc
It’s hard to believe that it’s been six months since I last posted. Time flies etc. I have occasionally checked in on stats and it’s nice to see I get the same amount of visitors when I don’t post for six months than when I post three times a week. No really it is nice. I’ve decided to make a return appearance for a few reasons, some big, some little.
- In 11 days we are off to Argentina and Chile for, what I hope will be, the trip of a lifetime. We’re going hiking in Patagonia, wine drinking in Mendoza and architecture viewing in Buenos Aires. Cannot wait.
- This week Open Heart International posted a short film made by the incomparable Richard Bullock about our trip to Rwanda last year . I really hope you’ll take the 12 minutes to watch it, it is confronting, but demonstrates the passion with which OHI volunteers operate (literally.) I have a brief cameo in it, looking pretty average as it was a very tough day for me physically (broke my arm) and emotionally (watch the film to learn more.)
- I’m tying up loose ends with my first year as a PhD candidate. I’ve almost finished my marking for my year of teaching (which I have loved), I’ve presented my stage one assessment and written a draft paper, and I’ve learnt a hell of a lot. It’s been a tough process, but a rewarding one. I feel I’m in a good place for next year.
- From personal development perspective I had a small revelation last week. I have a new motto, when watching the behaviour of those around me, it is ‘but does it make them happy?’ When someone does something aggressive, or show pony like, I just ask myself ‘but does it make them happy?’ and you know what? Perspective unlocked.
- At a higher degree research conference last week I got chatting to a colleague about health and diet. She has been testing auto-immune paleo diets, so we shared stories. As I spoke to her I realised that I had slid far from the paleo path (more like 20/80 than 80/20 – no longer predominantly paleo) and the ramifications of which were sleep problems, weight gain, yoga injuries, hay fever and general grumpiness. Why was it so hard to remain committed to eating principles that made my life better? In some way I think giving up recipe development on this blog contributed, as I no longer had the impetus to continue (clearly my own well being was not enough.) There was always an excuse – next week I’d get back on the wagon. This week I said ‘no more’ and have begun the mojo-restoring journey. After two days I feel better (even with a slight paleo-flu headache.) I have to keep reminding myself that keeping healthy is not a ‘nice to do’ it is a ‘must do.’
But I keep meaning to check in on my resolutions/mini goals, so using the excuse as an avoidance technique.
- Average 10,000 steps a day
- Undertake a Whole30 or close to it January, then 80/20 paleo from then on
- Yoga – 5 times a week, shorter but harder classes
- Focus on authenticity in my relationships
- 100 Days of Happy project – linked to a general focus on the positive in my life.
I’m using my Friday afternoon to update my goals, while I frantically watch my email waiting for responses to a whole mess of communications. I’ve stressed myself out over this of late, so have decided to instigate #screenfreeweekend as of 5pm. No twitter, no facebook, no linkedin (many of my messages are via there), no email. Until Monday morning. (Instagram is exempt due to the 100 Days of Happy project.) This may kill me. Or, I will survive, talk to my husband, play with my dog, finish the latest book I’m reading, go to yoga, cook and generally be happy. (Could swing either way really.) So how am I tracking on my personal goals? A bit all over the place. 10,000 steps: my monthly Jan average is 10,132, so yeah. BUT, I have terrible tendonitis in my achilles and have a appointment with a podiatrist next week. Yoga 5 times a week: I did 18 classes in January, so about 4 classes a week. That’s OK. I have also injured my hip (I am such a physical wreck) so have had 2-3 days off a few times trying to heal it. As yet I’m still not 100%. Yet I also don’t think I’m working as hard as I should be. Whole 30-ish. I was so good…until January 26th. And this week I’ve fallen off the wagon completely. There was mac n cheese consumed. And chocolate. I have not, however, had any alcohol. Not a drop. I have felt worse this week though, but it’s a bit of a combination of the injury, general surliness and poorer foods. Guess what? They’re all linked! I also feel like I’ve gained weight, or not lost is as I’d hoped. Too scared to get on scales, but I can tell in my clothes. RECONFIRM FOCUS NEEDED, especially as alcohol is back as of tomorrow. Focus on authenticity in my relationships: good and bad here. I have my social media paranoia under control, but have had a rocky week with my husband. Enough said on this. 100 Days of Happy project – linked to a general focus on the positive in my life: this is actually going really well. I am enjoying the challenge and taking some good photos. Keep it up. And still not drinking tea. Next? Get my physical body back to a place where I don’t have to take iboprufen daily, while understanding that people not responding to my interview requests is not a judgement on my personality. Maybe eating gelato messina next week (my mum is coming, she loves it) but no more mac n cheese. Living is hard.abc